The Resurrection

Unknowingly I put her to sleep many years ago, believing that was the best thing for her. Even though she was in the prime of her life, the healthiest she'd ever been, no one questioned or protested when it was her turn to say goodbye. After awakening from a long sleep, I'm starting to miss her, so very much. And although she's been absent from my life for such a long time, the reemergence of love for her is iron strong.
She's been gone for half of my life, you know, but she was the one who was with me from the very beginning. She was my gift from God! How could I have forgotten about her so completely? I ask myself this now. But now that I have remembered her, I long to see her again! I've imagined what it would be like to touch her, care for her, and love her to the full extent she deserves.
I find myself looking around trying to find another who favors her and I feel a pull so deep in my spirit when I think about her rebirth. Yes! Can you believe it?! She's coming back to me! She has endured a fiery death, many times over, and yet she still struggles to come back to me! Ah, her strength is so amazing; no wonder she was given the reigning position she has.
I now know her value and when I think about my naivety to have buried her for this long, it hurts my soul deeply. But she's coming back! I haven't seen her in so many years; I wonder how or if she's changed much? But truthfully, that don't even matter; I just want her back, regardless. She'll be here soon. And I feel my heart expanding to embrace her.
I know how to take care of her now and I'm learning new things every day. Yes, I know she'll be here soon; for I can already see her silhouette! And when she gets here, she will rightly take her royal position. And I will reign proudly with her as the Queen I was created to be. Until then, I anxiously await her arrival.

*written while transitioning to my natural hair after many years of putting a relaxer in my hair. :)

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